Cjayy ♥

*agak agak kalau aku post entry ni, kau terasa tak? Hm..

There! First of all. --> I want say sorry for hurting you, sorry because after all of hope that i gave you then i leave. sorry i had change with suddenly, sorry i ignore you. Sorry for everything, friend. Sorry Sorry T.T Macam kejam kan aku buat semua ni but fact, i need. Well, kalau aku terus kan dgn kau without love. Tak boleh weh.  Tadi dekat sekolah, tengah syok syok berborak. I got one text from him and yeah spoil kan betul mood aku. Sakit hati betul -,-
Him : Cjay, demi Allah. Aku mimpi kau. Aku sayang kau. Me : Mimpi mainan tidur.
Aku dah mcm heartless do. Fact, tapi aku mmg mcmtu. Once aku cakap aku taknak. Mmg aku taknak. Even sometime, aku macam 'AHHH KESIAN NYA, TAK PATUT BETUL AKU BUAT MCMNI' Tapi kalau aku teruskan kesian ni, mmg lagi parah lah kot so better i ignore him. Biar lah orang nak cakap aku kejam ke apa, at least aku tauu. Aku tak kejam but apa aku buat lagi mcm kebaikan kot. Kang kalau aku layan melebih dia cakap 'aku tau kau sayang kau, jujur jelah' Pulak -..-
Confessing : Not easy to love someone who kawan kita since zaman zaman hingusan lagi then lagi susah bila kena paksa suka dekat orang tu padahal in the same time, kita simpan hati dekat orang lain. Susah kan? Biar lah, orang yang kita simpan perasaan tu didn't know anything daripada kita mcm bodoh tipu diri sendiri. #aku sendiri tak faham apa aku cakap. Ahhhh -,- tekanan k tekanan.